What Next??

So sad and so depressed. My world as I knew it is changing and it is changing for the worse. It is a sad sad day. And I have no words to describe what I feel and what I want to say and what I am thinking. This is how it feels. To fall out of a tall building. To come spiralling down to meet your demise. I am numb as is the rest of the population of Pakistan. I am numb and I turn my head the other way, in shame perhaps.
Srilanka is not a newbie when it comes to acts of terror as it has its own share of traumas to deal with. Srilankans though know the two adversaries of their war. There is no mistaking who is the enemy on either side. The agenda is known. The reasons are known. The war is old, known and accepted. There is no denial.
We as a nation are numb and confused. Who is attacking us? The Indians? Talibans? or the Americans?
We are in Denial. These people who attack us are not Pakistanis! These people have no connection to Pakistan! These are not Muslims! We are not at war! This is only NWFP's problem!
We don't know the agenda behind this craziness. What do they want to from us? Why would they do this? They would never attack the cricketers? If we just look the other way and close our eyes, this will go away.
We are not shocked, we are just numb. Heartless? Perhaps not. We just don't want to be responsible to fix this. We hope someone or something else will come and fix this.
Sri Lanka Cricket team did us a favour by visiting Pakistan. They understood what it feels like to be outcast as a terrorised state. They came and they paid for it. Why are we surprised? Didn't New Zealand's team get attacked a few years back?
Life as we knew it is gone...we are just too damn numb AND PROUD to accept it or maybe we are too selfish to accept it and do something about it. The Pink elephant in the room. As long as you don't see it you don't have to do anything about it.
Wake up Morons. We are a nation under attack, a nation at war. There is a divide in the nation. The fundamentalists Vs the liberals. They are a part of us. They maybe supported by other countries or organizations but they are not non-Pakistanis and they are not non-Muslims. They may have taken their faith too far and we may not agree with their approach towards religion but they justify all their actions in the light of their belief system. That in itself should alarm us enough to scare the living daylights out of us. They are here, in Karachi, in Lahore and in Islamabad. They have attacked any and every city, town, village. They live among us. We don't recognize them because they are part of us. They are here.
Sadly, our Government, our legal and judicial system, our police force, our bureaucracy, our Army and our people are not ready or willing to acknowledge this or deal with it. We are not prepared for the war and not prepared to take the responsibility.
Is this the beginning of the end? The country, the ideology, the people are all under threat of extinction, are we willing to stand by, watch and not do anything? Is there no hope? Are we cursed for this annihilation? I don't have any answers...I used to, but not anymore...