Plateau

I am working hard. I am eating right. I am training every day. I can now run 20 mins instead of the 1 I could barely run 4 months back. I feel better than I have in a long time. And I absolutely adore my trainer, of course ;) I am happy and excited.


I happily eat and train my way into April and run straight into a wall. No matter how hard I try I keep hitting the wall and I get nowhere. Its frustrating and annoying and worst of all demotivating. The only thing that keeps me from giving up is the money that has gone to my "adorable trainer". I talk about it constantly and my trio of sweet well-wishers can only do so much to keep themselves from choking me. Probably the fact that I have 850 miles between them and myself helps tremendously. But can I do? When you work so hard to achieve a goal, every road block seems like a nuisance or at least a universal conspiracy to keep you from gaining your happiness.
Three weeks of the needle pointing the same number on the weight machine pushes me off my rocker and I glare angrily at Nick as he makes me run at 9 mph for a final 1 min sprint. He smiles and I tell him how much I hate him. He takes it. I feel horrible.
I am in tears as Nick tells me that I have hit my first plateau and there is nothing I can do except keep going. I feel nervous and wonder if I will forever stay at this same weight and never ever get back in shape. Nick reads my mind and says no. Aapi tells me don't give up. Guruji is annoyed but patiently tells me its temporary and M just says "hmmmmmmmmm just keep at it bhaeeee".
And then I realise something. Isn't life just like this? You work so hard and do everything right and expect certain things to happen and some of them do happen, but then you hit a plateau. No matter how hard you try, no matter how much you want things to move forward, it all remains just the same. Nothing works and life becomes stagnant. The needle on the "wait machine" pretty much signals at "the rut" and all you can really do is to "keep at it". You just cant give up. You have to keep doing the right things and wait for the time when you are shown a way to climb past the plateau. All you can do is keep yourself motivated, be consistent and hope for the best. If you give up you will never know what was on the other side of the wall and all your life you will keep wondering.
We have all had our shares of plateaus. Some of us might right now be up against a wall. And it may all seem so hopeless and pointless and we may feel we will forever be up against this wall and things will never change. But we all know they do. At least I know they do. And once we are able to climb over the wall, we get things which were beyond our expectations.
So the moral of the story, success doesn't come easy and goals are not easily achieved. And a few those who got things easily are mere flukes or myths. A way for the universe to tease and test the majority of us who have to work our butts off to get anywhere in life. Not giving up and working hard. That's the key.
Soooo what do I do? I apologize to Nick, study my actions closely and honestly to identify the loose bricks and replace them, log my days accurately and stay as far away from the chocolates as I possibly can. Negative energy not allowed :)
This morning I stowed the weight machine in the storage room.