The fried egg syndrome

Seattle is experiencing the hottest and more importantly the driest summer of the century. Of course the century is just in its 10th year and with the way the climate is changing most likely the records set this year will be easily broken in the years to come. Nevertheless, it is frigging hellish HOT out there and I'm suffering from the Fried Egg Syndrome. But perhaps it isn't the dry heat that is at the root of this syndrome. Perhaps it is due to my impending unemployment and homelessness or the fact that the roommate wont agree to my parents staying at my place during their visit, despite the fact that she is never at home (I last saw her in April) or the fact that I cant find a place to keep my dearest family who plan to visit me in August, or my little cousin getting harassed by her jackass husband, or my seemingly useless workouts (the weight loss is progressing at snails pace...and no I am not digesting crap). Or maybe it is the heat after all. My place has no air-conditioning and the temperature keeps in the late 80s up until midnight. My room faces east and the freeway, absorbing the heat from the entire day and not allowing me to keep my window open through the night Last night I plugged in cotton balls in my ears to silence the freeway noise just so I can keep the window open.

Whatever maybe the reason, my brain seems ready to melt out of my ears. This reminds me of my visits to Multan at various occasions. Multan is a city in Pakistani Punjab, situated near the Cholistan Desert. It is a wonderful place of cultural, historic and spiritual importance, but none of this greatness can minimize the fact that the place is HELL April through October. It is soooo hot, averaging anywhere between 50 - 55 Celsius (Seattleites that's between 120 - 130 Fahrenheit). You cant eat, you cant breath. It is like being in a damn sauna. I remember it so clearly. I also remember every time I went there I prayed more regularly and tried to be a good Muslim, since it was so much like burning in hell for eternity. Tauba Tauba.

By now I have no idea where this post is going. What was I trying to say....see what I mean about the the syndrome. Oh whatever, its not like i have a gaggle of loyal readers following this blog.

The point maybe is that I wish I was in a tropical place, where temperatures remained moderate (anywhere between 70 - 80 F/20 - 28 C) throughout the year, I had a place of my own where people could visit and stay with me freely, my cousin could go back being single and come to the US to study, I had a dream job in a heavily unionized company to give me eternal job security and job satisfaction and I was eternally in the best shape of my life, without having to work at it like a dog. Sighhh if only we could have our tiny little dreams and wishes come true ;-).

Wake-up you lazy bum

I am so lazy these days to write anything. Maybe its the NW Pacific fall (cold and wet), maybe its the lack of audience and zero responses on my past 5 posts, or maybe I am just so God damn bored.
Maybe that's just it - I am so bored. I need some fun and excitement, I need something to look forward to, a job that makes me wanna jump out of the bed every morning or at least makes me wanna go to work or perhaps I need to travel or get a dog, or finally tie the knot or maybe try something new like Mary Jane or tequila or bungy jumping, or join a cult or become a Rasta or a nun or a cop or a fireman. Maybe I can finally learn how to swim or how to Tango or maybe I can finally take up carpentry and start writing my book, or maybe train for a marathon or or or...
How mundane does life have to get before you stop dreaming about things and start doing them. Of course I never dream about joining a cult or becoming a nun but some of the things mentioned above have been in my mind for the longest of time. I mean I would not be caught dead bungy jumping (only after maybe) but man I do want to dance like Julianne Hough.

The following passage is quoted from this blog I frequently visit: ..

"Most of us spend our life thinking of doing many a thing, but never get around to doing it. We blame it on time, and our ever packed schedules and working at jobs which majority of us are not in love with. Remember life by what you did and not by what you wanted to do. The right moment to do what you always wanted to do, is NOW! And stop caring what the world thinks!"

Although I was sad to see the extremely fun blog getting terminated, but his final words of wisdom struck a chord with me.
There is so much I wanna learn and try and do and I am just waiting for things to settle and then find the resources and time to do all this, but that is not going to happen is it? There will always be something stopping me from fulfilling my dreams. I am constantly using one excuse or the other to overcome the laziness caused by my boredom, which in turn is caused by the mundane nature of my life. That sounds sooo SAD.
So what should I do? Make a resolution to live each day as my last in this world and try to pick each one of dreams one by one and fulfilling them? Darn right I should. I will do just that and stop playing this waiting game
So here is a list of what I really want to do:

Start Smoking Pot and become a Rasta - dreadlocks is so my lookJoin a cult - this world is so over-ratedBecome a fireman - after the sex change operation of courseGet married next week ( sorry Guru Ji my mind is made up) and steal my neighbor's dog on my way out of SeattleWork on building my time machine...OK fine, that is not the real list of things I want to do. Smoking makes me sick, no cult would wanna keep me (they will take me, but not keep me), I am extremely happy being a woman and I cant possibly leave Seattle or my Guru Ji (awww). I am making all this up.The truth is I don't have a list right now and maybe I don't want to keep a list. I just want to live in this moment and for now. But what I do wish to change is that if in this moment there is something I want to achieve/learn/do then I should go after it by all my means with all my heart and not worry about anything else.